His hard cock and warm kisses

This is a big moment because the blog is finally up to date.  There are no more pending entries.  From now on everything will be in real time.

Here is the last note, it's about last week:

Last Tuesday I rediscovered [boyfriend's] smile, his freshness/coolness, his enthusiasm, his hard cock, his warm kisses. A moment and an unforgettable, gentle new time. Thanks and see you soon I believe.

Boyfriend replied:

A very good time once again. A lover with a talent for heightening pleasure before finally satisfying.

Here's a photo of the guy's cock:

He is 38 years old, has short light brown hair, a nice body, and an uncut dick.  He's a top.

Taken the bait

What does this mean?  In a Turkish way?  (My boyfriend is blonde and has blue eyes.)

That morning, I have taken the bait. What a pleasure to be received by a charming young man, attentive, comfortable and safe (in a Turkish way).  It was a pleasure.

The guy is 48 year old, 6'3", 180, white, average body, short hair, clean shaven.
He says he has an extra large dick and is a top.

"I wanted to ask you about those things I kind of stole from you."

He sent me an email offering to return my stuff he took.

I wish I could take a picture but I think the Iphone you gave me (or… the iphone I stole from you) is broken. I broke the glass like two months ago I don’t know how and it's slowly dying… This is really sad. I wanted to ask you about those things I kind of stole from you. I feel really bad, I never planned on keeping them the first time. Except for the clothes you wanted to give away of course. But so, I have your coat, the phone, the macbook, the green suitcase, the headphones and a pair of socks. (I think that’s it.) I live with those things every day. Really like it's all your stuff it's so fucking astonishing. But I'm wiling to give it back to you in [trip we're taking in May] if you need it so. I think it's better talking about it now instead of not ever talking about it =)

It's a nice gesture, although of course he knows I'm going to let him keep everything.

I feel like part of a select club

The weirder the guy the weirder the message.  From the guy:

Thank you for your message my tender friend :-)
With you I had a moment of intense sensuality; but not only, it is also a moment of openness to the world and reflection.
I wish you a successful future.
With you I feel like part of an exclusive club ;-)

Boyfriend's original message:

More than just a blow job.
Kindness, tenderness, tasty kisses and generosity.
Thank you for our great moment.

The other guy is 41 years, 5'9, 264.  His profile says: Hi all, you sit quietly and I take care of you and the rest ;)

Michaelangelo's David

I guess some guys get a bit carried away:

Even though I swore never to write comments here, I can't help but write a few words about [boyfriend].  He is a cross between Michaelangelo's David and maybe Einstein... who alas I never met!  LOL
Excellent body and mind.
I want to meet again soon.

A dream come true

This message is so short I wonder what they did.

Your boyfriend gave me a warm welcome.  He has a gorgeous body and a killer smile.
He is a total love.  What a dish!  A dream come true.
I want to see him again very soon.

I impaled myself on his hard cock, then I came.

So the guy who puts together groups emails me and says he wants to meet again, but this time for a one-on-one.  That weekend he writes:

We met at his house. We had a drink, smoked a cigarette for a few minutes, and we talked. Then we got naked, I was hard like crazy, he was pretty excited too.  

We were both rock hard and started touching each other. We kissed for a long time, and started to take turns sucking each other. He sucked me for a long long time. I sucked him ask well but not as long as him because he was going to cum. He was so aroused, me too. I love sex with him. We kissed more, then he put on a condom.  

He fucked me good, he fucked me while I was on all fours, then I got on my back and he fucked me hard, next I sat on his fat cock. I jumped on his dick. For at least a good fifteen minutes I impaled myself on his hard cock, then I came. And he came too, on my ass. It was great. He was really happy and so was I.  

I hope I'll be able to see him again, I hope what I wote pleases you, that it excites you. It was really great. Kisses to you.

My boyfriend responded:

He is hard to resist. I have been tempted, and again, a pure pleasure party =)

My boyfriend has sex with a group of guys

This was something different.  One of the yahoo groups has a guy who puts together small group meets.  He sent out an email asking for donations to help host the next one.  I sent him 200€ and suggested he invite my boyfriend.  I thought maybe it would be in a week or two, but the next day I get a message it's on.

Here is the guy's description of the evening:

We saw each other in a big apartment, we were alone, we talked a little then got naked.  I got hard and so did he. We started by touching each other's crotches and then we made out a long time, I started sucking him and he sucked me too.  It lasted a long time, I even thought I was going to cum. Very good! Then I spread out on the bed, he fingered me, I loved it and he got so hard. He fucked me deep and I really loved it. 

Then two other guys came and it was a real orgy. Everyone was naked, hard. The other guys weren't as handsome as [boyfriend]. But that's ok, they had nice dicks and asses! Everyone made out for at least twenty minutes, we all made out with one another, everyone was hard really hard. We all sucked each other. We even sucked multiple dicks at the same time. We even had two guys sucking [boyfriend] at the same time. Two tongues on his dick! Awesome! 

Then [boyfriend] took my ass and fucked another guy who was there. We all fucked the guy, one at a time, it was awesome! [Boyfriend] wanted to cum, we fucked the guy for at least thirty minutes, taking turns. so good. Then one guy came, [boyfriend] wanted to too. He came on my ass, we were all tired...lol... Then I fucked the guy once more and I put a dlido in him. I finished by jacking off and I came on his face. 

We all had a drink. Everyone went home, it was really really nice. I hope to start it up again with [boyfriend]. He's really nice and very handsome. I hope I've given enough details. And I hope you got aroused reading this.

My boyfriend also left a message:

A moment as enjoyable as unexpected. A simple exchange of messages got us to meet to just fuck freely. A real man, and a huge dick. You know how to make someone comfortable, to take charge. Good fucker, beautiful body, and a magnificent ass. 

I had a great Saturday evening thanks to this guy, and the two guys with us would agree with me if they could write here.  A very successful sexual encounter, really.

I've seen the host's photos and profile (he's really hot):  He's white, 33, 6'2", 175, has short dark hair and blue eyes.  He's bisexual, versatile, with an extra large uncut cock.  He has a nice, muscular body.  He says he's very picky about who he meets.

I like to think about my boyfriend's mouth wrapped around his cock:

And I like to think about my boyfriend's cock slipping into his ass:

A great cock to suck off!

So he describes my boyfriend:

Impressive body! Super masseur! A great cock to suck off! I will see you again soon, you are beautiful!

My boyfriend describes him:

You're a very nice guy, cool and easy to talk to. Although this was my first chance to spend time with you, it was really as if we already knew each other.
Note: A mouth of quite impressive capability for giving head =) You're a great sucker =)

He is 34, 5'7", latin, versatile, with green eyes and short hair.

He meets a real man and enjoys his cock

Of all the messages I've seen, this is the one I've read the most.  It came the day after Valentine's Day.  The review of my boyfriend is very plain:

Very friendly and good looking guy.
Cute face and very hot!

My boyfriend's review of him is more telling:

What a great guy, with really enjoyable cock
He is also a good kisser.
It's always nice to have a real man like him in your bed :D

I've seen a photo of the guy.  He's leaning back naked and it's cropped just before you can see his cock.  But I've thought of many different ways my boyfriend could enjoy his cock.   And how great the make out session would be with a good kisser.  And how he would enjoy a real man's body and cock.

In fact, it was just after this that I started this blog.

The real man is white, 33, 6'2", 174, short brown hair, stubble, and is bisexual.  He likes erotic massage and soft sex.

Here is a photo of the guy:

Unfortunately I do not have a photo of his cock.  I don't even know if it's cut or uncut.  But I've spent a lot of time imagining it, and thinking of all the ways my boyfriend could enjoy a real man's cock.

Hot in bed and a good fuck

Now that we're separated, I wait to see if I get another message.  And I do.  This was February 13, 2014:

He's a gorgeous young man.  Hot in bed and a good fuck.  I can't wait to see him again.

The hiatus

So ten days after my boyfriend flies home in January he texts me that he is not coming back.

He is going to meet other guys.  Lots of other guys.

But we make plans to meet again in May.

My boyfriend comes up with a plan to steal from me

This is a note he made for himself on the iPhone I gave him:

My Machiavellian plan is so perfect.
I'll take the mac book air. I'll keep the iPhone like a new iPod connected to wifi (after all 64gb).
I have stashed between 4000 and 5000 dollars in cash, which is maybe 3000 or 4000 in euros to add to my savings.
I go back home, take my exams.
I'll ask for an allowance in January.
I take a flight February 7th, like that I'll start the second month. But I'm not coming back. I'll just say I missed my flight. 

I'll keep pretending to love him, even after not returning in February, but I'll make up a pretext like a death or my studies. That way I'll still be able to go back :) And if he complains I'll promise a better vacation together in the future. I will keep squeezing my pension out of him until he meets someone else. 

So I will get a plane ticket between Feb 7th and before he leaves for New Orleans! :)
Tomorrow is the 4th, until the 14th that gives me ten full days to work (well 7 days with the weekend, etc.) 

If I add the suit, the Bose headset, and other clothes (Forever XXI) I'm good.
I'll have 27,000 or 28,000 euros and I can save up to 30,000 by May. Then in June I'll work to pay for my vacation.  And boom! A circle of a crazy, enriching year, risky money, lies, breakups, etc.

My boyfriend starts having doubts about the relationship

For whatever reason, he wrote this note:

I should not have gotten the apartment in New York.  I'm not getting into the Master's program I want. I guess I will retake the year, it's embarrassing, but I will have to do it.
What I should have done is go into the Master of Business Law as planned.  I would have lost the money I made in the US.  I have done so much traveling.  I guess I can always be a clerk.
I need to find the right group of guys who will support me for sex.  In a year I could reach 50,000 euros which is really what I need for the next two years.
I really want the macbook.
I want cool friends.

Cheating on me while I'm off with friends

It's just after New Year's. I have a trip to see college friends. He says he doesn't want to come. So I leave early in the morning by myself. We text all day but he stops texting for a bit.

When I get home I see he was texting with another guy. About an hour after I had left they talked on the phone for 8 minutes. They text until mid-morning, stop texting for 2 hours, and then start texting again until 2 pm.

Do you think they hooked up midmorning or at 2?

I watch my boyfriend dance shirtless in a crowd of hot guys

It's New Year's Eve. We are out at a gay club. We are out all night but it is getting late. I watch my boyfriend dance shirtless in a crowd of hot guys. He tells me I should go home but that he wants to stay. So I leave. Two hours later he comes home. I will never know what happened. Chance he hooked up: 30%

The business trip: Did he cheat?

I have a business trip and I take him with me so he can explore a new city.  I have to go to work early in the morning and we will meet up afterwards.  That day he texts with at least two guys.  I find directions to an apartment complex on googlemaps.  When I ask him about the apartment complex he says he was just exploring and not meeting anyone.  He points out that we had great sex that evening.

Did he cheat?  Please respond in comments.

Monogamy*

Like all relationships, we began with a date (probably my best date ever), followed by more dating, and eventually one person brings up the idea of a relationship.  I said that I wanted to see where things were going and that I loved him.  He told me that was OK but that we would still see other people.  That was October.  In November we had another talk and decided to be monogamous.  I liked being monogamous with him.  I really wasn't until after the relationship was over that I realized that he was not monogamous with me.

This post marks the point in time where we started dating.  Regardless of whatever you may see in this blog, or whatever you may think about me, I truly, deeply loved him.